把思念解成不习惯，

是害怕面对？

自我逃避?

还是自信的不足？？？



不管怎样，

我比以前更想你， 更会珍惜你 =)

A little update

After 4 months of job hunting, I've finally found a job in finance industry at United Oversea Bank. It's to work as a Personal Banker. Although I am not so into this kind of front line position, but the career progression is what I have been searching for and I believed that at the end of all the hard work ( which I believe that I wouldn't mind going for it at all cost ) , I will get what I am looking for.Well...at the very least, I could, somehow stop all the restless and tedious job applications at the moment while trying for this position, at least for that 6 months of probation period?! HA HA

At first I thought that i could finally settle down after graduating for 4 months, BUT... yeah there are always the BUT's in this fucking terrible world!!! Here come the issues in house renting, where the initial going-to-be housemate had decided to back out from sharing the HDB flat and leave the 3 of us to die swallowing 2k per month. JACKASS....Please don't even think that this issue can be solved by getting another person to share the rental, the next person that we got has issue of paying for the agent fees!!! =.=''' and then again, by getting another new friends/persons to go for another unit of house, the FRIENDS pangseh us by going to share with other people and finally leave me and chuen alone ... DAMN FUCKED UP CAN?!!! NABUOY CCB
Anyway, HECK IT la!! I want to stop thinking about it for a few days before I starting to find new housemates again...*sigh*

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The exam period is going to end soon and a lot of my local friends had moved out from the hall leaving the hall so empty now =( Getting kinda uneasy without anything ONz at night like seriously, and SERIOUSLY!!!

Missing the nights spent together with you either for shows, L4D or cooking some random things, and it was always happening ones.

Thanks for the on-time gummies when I was craving for it...
Thanks for coming down to accompany me when I wasn't feeling well...
Thanks for the effort to cheer me up when you got to know that I was emo-ing...
Thanks for the sweet sweet cards to make my day...
Thanks for the tie when I really needed it for my UOB interview...
Thanks for the 川贝杏仁凉茶 when I had a bad cough...


and it was really really great having those precious moment with you. The nights are so different without you. I think I was really blessed to have you during the last 3 weeks of the school life and of course I wish that it could be longer, so do you, right ? right??? =DDDD

Thanks again to you-know-who-you-are
for being there =)

难。过

难，
可不可以是一种借口。。。

就算难，
是不是不应该放弃？

如果，
可以蒙着头换去一丝丝的幸福和甜蜜，
那为何不尝试努力地去争取和拥有它？

虽然为了自己而很尽力地保护自己的感觉

到头来，
还是需要一个人的去面对那一切。。。

想重燃戒掉已久的习惯，
是不想自己独自伤心着去面对

45 与 30 的分别 & 郑元畅

今早舞蹈练习回房后，边休息边和室友聊天。。。
当他快要出门时，我就去洗澡，因为今天有两场秀要做
过后“大歹件”就发生了

洗完澡后，惊觉 （ 注 : 是真的很“惊”，会死人的那种）
厕所门锁住了！！！！ 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。

当时应该是 1:15pm 左右，
室友出去了，很巧！真的很巧的是隔壁房的那两个人也不在！ 我老欸！
慌了， 真的慌了!!!
你可曾试过被困在一个只可容纳4人左右的空间，而且还要有个马桶在内 =.=

当然，在厕所内并不是不可以大声喊，
喊着希望刚巧有个认识的人走过，
然后还要刚巧那个认识的朋友认得出我的声音
也还要个刚巧他/她拥有我室友的手机号码
再来一个刚巧的他/她懂得打给我室友把他叫回来开门

但是！对，这世上永远都有个BUT

要随便一个刚巧发生都有些难了，何况是四个？！
况且，试想想，万一真的"被救"了，
让人看见只穿着一件红色底裤的我 满身大汗及狼狈的在厕所里面
我形象何在？！！！（当然那时我并没顾虑到这些）

回归正题
慌是慌了，但还是想到了
到底要等室友回来呢？还是把门锁破坏掉然后出来？
这时，突然想到室友出去前告诉我，
他会去吃午餐，然后去看篮球比赛。。。
是！是篮球比赛！！
cialat了。。。 他并不是一时三刻就会回来的

不管了，把门锁破坏掉吧！
敲了几下，他妈的 手都肿了，门锁还是好好的！

突然，我听到了手机闹钟响了，

代表着已经是2:00pm了！！我的表演是3pm啊老天

这时的心情已经不是单单“慌”就可以形容得了的

再来aim门，把门破坏了应该就可以出去了

（人一旦发了疯就什么都做得出）

试了几次，终于 把门破坏了！！

没事没事，门受的只是小伤，罢了？

门开了的第一件事就是， 再进回去冲个凉。。。

总不能满身湿透的出门吧？

好了 解脱了。。。

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总算没迟到

到场后练习了几次舞蹈，郑元畅 就到了!

没错， 这次是当歌手的background dancer 的表演

还是我的第一次

对他的印象就只有会在偶像剧里耍酷，人应该还会蛮高傲吧

但我错了，

他一进后台就和我两握手，和我们说了一些话再去补妆

（是很友善 HAHA）

然后他又过来告诉我们那舞蹈要怎样怎样

“。。。其实那些舞步只要干净利落就好，舞者自己的风格什么都不用。。。”

虽然要一个非舞者告诉我们怎么跳舞是有些奇怪，不过我们还是受了 哈哈

在JP跳了一场，就是晚上在MediaCorp跳的直播

而他也很友善和我们拍了两张照片

虽然我并不是他的粉丝

不过

他的粉丝们，不好意思了！ LOL

一个不错的经验

一个难得和艺人的接触

Conclusion : 后台的30分钟， 和厕所的45分钟 是天与地的差别

Possessive Love

Happened to visit a blog and noticed one of the post, which I think that it would be nice if it is read by some of my friends who are confronting problems in their relationship.

It's about the emotion of possessiveness in the journey of love which is like a tug to many out there.

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I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me. Once when we were sitting at the edge of a swimming pool, she filled the palm of her hand with some water and held it before me, and said this: “You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It symbolizes Love.”

This was how I saw it:

As long as you keep your hand gently open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds. This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love. They try to posses, own, demand, and expect… and just like the water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you.

For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature. If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings. There are certain lessons and learnings in life, that demand conscious effort from our side to put them to practice and awareness always helps in defining our perspective. Love like joy and cheer is meant to be shared and isn’t limited like a piece of cake.

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Yeah, it sounds like a very simple perspective but how many of us could actually internalize it?

Chauvinism and possessiveness overdrive are just the poisons own by those losers to cause struggle and kill their god-given relationships.