"...There was this couple in front of me at the escalator, a distance away, bickering over some stuff barely audible to me, and the girl started pinching the other guy, apparently trying to lighten the mood and make the matter go away. The guy was having none of it and became agitated and sh*t, so she grabbed him by the neck and planted a huge kiss right smack on his lips. They proceeded to engage in tonsil hockey for a good seven minutes and thirty-four seconds. I mean, this is the sort of love I am talking about-

there is no right and wrong, we may have our disagreements,

but end of the day,

just shut me up with your kiss, baby,

because it’s just…

love,

crazy love,

L’amour fou..."

Not You?

NOT YOU




Is it me in the mirror
Oh I can't believe
This is my reflection

Suddenly, I'm not familiar
With these eyes that are supposed to be mine
They were never crying before
But things aren't the same anymore

Who's gonna wipe away my tears when I feel lonely
Who's gonna take away this pain that I feel
Who's gonna guarantee that my heart won't be breaking
In two. Not you

Is it me in this bedroom
Cause I can't believe waking up without you
I'm not the same since you left me

And there ain't a thing that my love can do
Even though I'm trying I can't ignore
That things aren't the same as before

Who's gonna wipe away my tears when I feel lonely
Who's gonna take away this pain that I feel
Who's gonna guarantee that my heart won't be breaking
In two. Not you

Whoever is here to ease me
When I'm feeling blue
Not you

Who's gonna wipe away my tears when I feel lonely
Who's gonna take away this pain that I feel
Who's gonna guarantee that my heart won't be breaking
In two. Not you

Not you
Not you

Whos gonna come for me
Not you

Whenever I am tired or stressed,

I will just think of going to you, concuss... and die hard in your arms...

because I believed that,

it is the most comfortable place on the earth for me.




But why can't you understand the effort that,

I am trying to be the one lending out my arms and love?

=(

I have no idea why I act in that way...

I felt so terrible after sending that sms, I know that it is fucking harsh and it will be unacceptable for you

I don't know...

I am freaking restless without knowing how badly my dad's injuries are...

I really really need you to be here =(

and


I am so deeply sorry baby! =((

把思念解成不习惯，

是害怕面对？

自我逃避?

还是自信的不足？？？



不管怎样，

我比以前更想你， 更会珍惜你 =)

A little update

After 4 months of job hunting, I've finally found a job in finance industry at United Oversea Bank. It's to work as a Personal Banker. Although I am not so into this kind of front line position, but the career progression is what I have been searching for and I believed that at the end of all the hard work ( which I believe that I wouldn't mind going for it at all cost ) , I will get what I am looking for.Well...at the very least, I could, somehow stop all the restless and tedious job applications at the moment while trying for this position, at least for that 6 months of probation period?! HA HA

At first I thought that i could finally settle down after graduating for 4 months, BUT... yeah there are always the BUT's in this fucking terrible world!!! Here come the issues in house renting, where the initial going-to-be housemate had decided to back out from sharing the HDB flat and leave the 3 of us to die swallowing 2k per month. JACKASS....Please don't even think that this issue can be solved by getting another person to share the rental, the next person that we got has issue of paying for the agent fees!!! =.=''' and then again, by getting another new friends/persons to go for another unit of house, the FRIENDS pangseh us by going to share with other people and finally leave me and chuen alone ... DAMN FUCKED UP CAN?!!! NABUOY CCB
Anyway, HECK IT la!! I want to stop thinking about it for a few days before I starting to find new housemates again...*sigh*

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The exam period is going to end soon and a lot of my local friends had moved out from the hall leaving the hall so empty now =( Getting kinda uneasy without anything ONz at night like seriously, and SERIOUSLY!!!

Missing the nights spent together with you either for shows, L4D or cooking some random things, and it was always happening ones.

Thanks for the on-time gummies when I was craving for it...
Thanks for coming down to accompany me when I wasn't feeling well...
Thanks for the effort to cheer me up when you got to know that I was emo-ing...
Thanks for the sweet sweet cards to make my day...
Thanks for the tie when I really needed it for my UOB interview...
Thanks for the 川贝杏仁凉茶 when I had a bad cough...


and it was really really great having those precious moment with you. The nights are so different without you. I think I was really blessed to have you during the last 3 weeks of the school life and of course I wish that it could be longer, so do you, right ? right??? =DDDD

Thanks again to you-know-who-you-are
for being there =)

难。过

难，
可不可以是一种借口。。。

就算难，
是不是不应该放弃？

如果，
可以蒙着头换去一丝丝的幸福和甜蜜，
那为何不尝试努力地去争取和拥有它？

虽然为了自己而很尽力地保护自己的感觉

到头来，
还是需要一个人的去面对那一切。。。

想重燃戒掉已久的习惯，
是不想自己独自伤心着去面对

45 与 30 的分别 & 郑元畅

今早舞蹈练习回房后，边休息边和室友聊天。。。
当他快要出门时，我就去洗澡，因为今天有两场秀要做
过后“大歹件”就发生了

洗完澡后，惊觉 （ 注 : 是真的很“惊”，会死人的那种）
厕所门锁住了！！！！ 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。

当时应该是 1:15pm 左右，
室友出去了，很巧！真的很巧的是隔壁房的那两个人也不在！ 我老欸！
慌了， 真的慌了!!!
你可曾试过被困在一个只可容纳4人左右的空间，而且还要有个马桶在内 =.=

当然，在厕所内并不是不可以大声喊，
喊着希望刚巧有个认识的人走过，
然后还要刚巧那个认识的朋友认得出我的声音
也还要个刚巧他/她拥有我室友的手机号码
再来一个刚巧的他/她懂得打给我室友把他叫回来开门

但是！对，这世上永远都有个BUT

要随便一个刚巧发生都有些难了，何况是四个？！
况且，试想想，万一真的"被救"了，
让人看见只穿着一件红色底裤的我 满身大汗及狼狈的在厕所里面
我形象何在？！！！（当然那时我并没顾虑到这些）

回归正题
慌是慌了，但还是想到了
到底要等室友回来呢？还是把门锁破坏掉然后出来？
这时，突然想到室友出去前告诉我，
他会去吃午餐，然后去看篮球比赛。。。
是！是篮球比赛！！
cialat了。。。 他并不是一时三刻就会回来的

不管了，把门锁破坏掉吧！
敲了几下，他妈的 手都肿了，门锁还是好好的！

突然，我听到了手机闹钟响了，

代表着已经是2:00pm了！！我的表演是3pm啊老天

这时的心情已经不是单单“慌”就可以形容得了的

再来aim门，把门破坏了应该就可以出去了

（人一旦发了疯就什么都做得出）

试了几次，终于 把门破坏了！！

没事没事，门受的只是小伤，罢了？

门开了的第一件事就是， 再进回去冲个凉。。。

总不能满身湿透的出门吧？

好了 解脱了。。。

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总算没迟到

到场后练习了几次舞蹈，郑元畅 就到了!

没错， 这次是当歌手的background dancer 的表演

还是我的第一次

对他的印象就只有会在偶像剧里耍酷，人应该还会蛮高傲吧

但我错了，

他一进后台就和我两握手，和我们说了一些话再去补妆

（是很友善 HAHA）

然后他又过来告诉我们那舞蹈要怎样怎样

“。。。其实那些舞步只要干净利落就好，舞者自己的风格什么都不用。。。”

虽然要一个非舞者告诉我们怎么跳舞是有些奇怪，不过我们还是受了 哈哈

在JP跳了一场，就是晚上在MediaCorp跳的直播

而他也很友善和我们拍了两张照片

虽然我并不是他的粉丝

不过

他的粉丝们，不好意思了！ LOL

一个不错的经验

一个难得和艺人的接触

Conclusion : 后台的30分钟， 和厕所的45分钟 是天与地的差别

Possessive Love

Happened to visit a blog and noticed one of the post, which I think that it would be nice if it is read by some of my friends who are confronting problems in their relationship.

It's about the emotion of possessiveness in the journey of love which is like a tug to many out there.

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I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me. Once when we were sitting at the edge of a swimming pool, she filled the palm of her hand with some water and held it before me, and said this: “You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It symbolizes Love.”

This was how I saw it:

As long as you keep your hand gently open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds. This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love. They try to posses, own, demand, and expect… and just like the water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you.

For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature. If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings. There are certain lessons and learnings in life, that demand conscious effort from our side to put them to practice and awareness always helps in defining our perspective. Love like joy and cheer is meant to be shared and isn’t limited like a piece of cake.

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Yeah, it sounds like a very simple perspective but how many of us could actually internalize it?

Chauvinism and possessiveness overdrive are just the poisons own by those losers to cause struggle and kill their god-given relationships.

道歉

以前我总会觉得

一个人道歉的 价值/歉意， 是他道歉次数的反比例

当他觉得他所犯下的过错总是可以以一句对不起来解决的话

那他的诚信是足以媲美粪便

或比它更出色

或是，

当别人一直对你道歉时

你就会觉得

你所做的一切， 都是对的

从而造就你那不可一世的理所当然

是恶心的。。。

因此，

我会觉得，对不起是很贵重的一句话

一些本来道歉就可以解决的事情

也因为这种执着而常搞得不欢而散

是斗气？

是面子？？

当然，

这种心理是随着年龄和思想而改变的

其实

道歉， 在意的不是谁对谁错

而是

一句真心的对不起

代表着你对那份感情的在意

对那个人的重视

多过于你自己，还有你的自尊心

hmmm

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"Do not worry about the people from the PAST,

there is a reason

they did not make it to your FUTURE."

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N' Dubz - Comfortable

It was 2004 i was sweet 16
Driving through north west to all you want to find
On the dual carriage way
With the wind in my face
You would pick me up every saturday
You would always be late, but i was willing to wait for you
I didn't know at the time that by years down the line
I'm still waiting for you

And I never imagined we would make it
You, you were my fantasy boy
And this, it was my dream come true
But it's nothing like I expected
I know in time that people change
I was foolish to think we'd stay the same
But I don't wanna loose my best friend
Tell me if this is love or am I just to comfortable

To comfortable
Tell me if this is love or am I just to comfortable

2006 I just turned 18
I'm starting to grow up now
Had enough of your shit
Said it was time for a change
Said you were feeling the same
You committed and gave me the love that i craved
You were so hard to trust
After all that you put me through
But when i gave you the chance
I really thought it would last
We were so in love

And I never imagined we would make it
You, you were my fantasy boy
And this, it was my dream come true
But it's nothing like i expected
I know in time that people change
I was foolish to think we'd stay the same
But I don't wanna loose my best friend
Tell me if this is love or am i just to comfortable

To comfortable
Tell me if this is love or am i just to comfortable

Take a good look at me
Look how i've changed
Cos I ain't half the person i used to be
I tried to wanna make it right
You tried to wanna start a fight
There was nothing left of me
My heart is full of hate and spite
Who the hell is this person
That's standing in front of me

Oh baby, please help me, i'm loosing my best friend

But I know in time that people change
I was foolish to think we'd stay the same
But I don't wanna loose my best friend
Tell me if this is love or am I just to comfortable

I know in time that people change
I was foolish to think we'd stay the same
But I don't wanna loose my best friend
Tell me if this is love or am I just to comfortable

Or am I just to comfortable

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SUDOKU

This game has been in my iPod Touch since I had my iPod and surprisingly, I play this game most of the time...Like when I was waiting for buses or after eating at canteen. Not to say that it's a boring game (maybe for most of the people out there) In fact, I found it quite interesting and worth playing =)

Well, the point of writing this entry is none other than SHOWING OFF the high scores that I just achieved recently, DURING EXAM PERIOD =D

The greatest "achievement" that I have so far.
Level : Hard ( 50 out of 81 cells to be filled )
Time used : 1:50 ( Wahahahaha)

I am challenging the next level, Insane which is the highest level of this game after this high score

So far.....

Level : Insane ( 53 out of 81 cells to be filled)
Time : 6:43 ( okok la...)

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like i have nothing better to do right?
ohh well, it's 6.5 hours to my 1st paper :s

wish me luck ^^

有些东西

是真的不必想那么多

自然就好

虽然 。。。我曾经想过

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平常心

真的有那么平常吗？

我只觉得， 它是最不容易拥有的东西


自身度外的态度不是时常行得通

表面上， 无关痛痒

可是，

感性的内心， 却是充满着渴望。。。期待。。。


这一次，

我有点不懂了。。。

Managing STRESS

*Please click the cross button on the top right corner if you DO NOT want to read anything about EXAM*

THIS IS A SERIOUS TOPIC

HP802 - Working in the 21st Century.

It is a module that I think I shouldn't have taken in this semester at all except Korean Language,why would I make my last semester such a disaster sia??? The materials in this module are damn dry laaaaaaaa.......and it's freaking suffering to look at all the notes *yawn* But then, after reading through his notes for 9 hours, I finally found something interesting...it's about how to manage stress though...

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STRESS
It's something that everyone would experience it, be it from yourself or the people surrounding you. It is normal to have a certain level of stress and we do need to have that amount of stress to remain alert and to work to our best. However, when the stress level becomes excessive, it could cause physical and psychological effect on the person who couldn't cope with that level of stress and it might be harmful. Depression and burnout are the examples of experiencing prolong stress.

Ways to manage stress

Attention to lifestyle
Mental Health is the balance between all aspects of life, be it socially, physically, spiritually and emotionally. If we are doing too much or too little in our lives, mental health can suffer.
Good balance between work or study and leisure pursuits is needed.

Social contact
having contact with companies we enjoy to be with,
To develop social interaction

Reviewing our lives from time to time
Consider what our aims and goals in life are and whether we are taking steps to achieve them
Problems are less likely to arise if our life is satisfying and fulling

Awareness of how mind and body interact
State of mental health could affect physical health, and vice versa
Sleep, exercise and diet should be adequate

Having people in our lives we trust
It is important to have someone to go with our problems and worries
So that you can be whiny???

Awareness of what can go wrong
Be conscious of what can go wrong
Realize that tiredness and irritability might lead to serious stress problems if they are ignored

Taking steps to resolve problems
Be aware of problems and seek help if necessary

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SEE!!!
I HAVE TOLD YOU

THIS IS A SERIOUS TOPIC!!!

SOLEMN ME
=p

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LOVE DRUNK

I haven't been updating my blog for so long, and now

NOTHING TO UPDATE also!

Ohh well, I think I am going to introduce the new album of one of my favorite rock band

BOYS LIKE GIRLS's
LOVE DRUNK
( 8th September 2009)

1. Heart Heart Heartbreak
2. Love Drunk*****
3. She's Got a Boyfriend Now***
4. Two is Better Than One*****
5. Contagious****
6. Real Thing
7. Someone Like You
8. The Shot Heard' Round The World
9. Chemical Collide
10. Go ***

The songs are highly catchy, well of course with their punchy rock style. and
If you are a Boys Like Girls fan, you will like them even more after their 1st album
The Great Escape
which is one of my favorite album as well ^^

Personally I like "Two is Better Than One" the most
which they featuring Taylor Swift!!!
=D

"It's fine, thanks"

短短的一句， 清楚明了





还真zzz....

shychyrazzy

Billie Jean Ah Hong
with smudged eye liner

Ah Y
She "created" herself in the most normal look than us but, yeah
YOU ARE MORE AN ALCOHOLIC THAN ME pleasee =p

Ah Beng + Smoker ZY
At least you have an iPod with you, trendy leh =]

Ah Lian SH
this picture says a thousand words,
IT's SO YOU!!!! =D

Smoker Mat Raz (with darker skin color)
well...*shake head*

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Time spent with you guys has never been wasted

all the HTHT + drinking sessions had brought us closer

to point where, ya,
LOVE, CARE and TRUST are the ONLY ingredients in the BOND

It's so great that we are in this SHYCHYRAZZY

Love you guys!!

*more sessions before exam please*

Today - A different special day

Why am I get affected so easily nowadays?

Does it mean that I care a lot more than I did?

or is it purely because of my weak ability of emotion control?

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getting EMO on my own birthday isn't something good to experience...

and that little act does, really hurt even though it's unintentional.

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Fortunately,

I have a bunch of great friends to be there with me

and THANKs for celebrating my birthday with me...

my Uni life wouldn't be the same without you guys =]

keep it , and love you guys =)

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officially 23rd!!!

JP 惊魂记

昨夜和MJ的朋友看了这部叫“FAME”的歌舞剧
虽然里边所有的男女主角都能唱能舞 有些的表演还甚至wow得我们鸡皮疙瘩
不过整体看来还算是有点失望的
故事张力不够。。。
情节发展路线/剧中主角太多，主角们的发展都很随便的带过。。。
没有主角们的进步过程，只有在尾段展现出他们的最好，没有说服力。。。等等

还真觉得那8块钱花得很不值得 就连在电影院外发生的事件都还更“精彩”

事情是这样的。。。当当当。。。当。。。

看完戏后就已经是差不多早上4点了 而看完戏的例行常规就是上厕所
我们都是一对对的分开走 这时。。。
我和另一个朋友看到了对面走廊上有个穿着白衣的长发女生
(戏院是在一间购物中心里面）
初始我们都不以为异
但走近时她却还是静静地站在那一动也不动 就觉得有点诡异了
这时有两个购物中心的工作人员站在一块展示板后边
看到我们时 就很细声的问我们

“你们看看， 那个女的是不是在牵着一个人？”

这时 我和我朋友就很直接地互相对望
然后很齐的， 也不回答就向前走。。。
走了有大概的距离后 也很一起的 “ 哇。。。。”

我的天 有没有啊？！
应该不会吧？哪有那么巧的撞见这种东西？
不过一般来说 一个年轻女孩不会在半夜 4点
一个人呆在购物中心吧 ？旁边也没人，就静静的站在那。。。
毛都站了。。。

好笑的是 走在我们后面的朋友也看见了那女孩
工作人员倒没问他们什么。。。
当他们很好奇那两个工作人员到底向我们说了什么的时候
我们的反应都是 “等下。。。等下。。。等我们离开了这再说." LOL
然后当他们听到我们所说的东西后的反应当然是比我们更激烈 哈哈哈

希望不会是那种东西吧 真邪门。。。